I hate, hate HATE 2011

As if having a miscarriage wasn't enough, now I find out I have fibromyalgia. A lovely little lifelong malady that will have me in pain forever!  Awesome! NOT! I'm sick sick sick of bad news. I had been holding out some hope that the pain clinic could actually help me. They're telling me that they'll be happy with a 30% reduction in my pain. 30% doesn't seem like a lot to me. On the one hand I have a diagnosis and it does explain a lot. On the other hand, FUCK FUCK FUCK! Why do I get to be the universe's punching bag? I have to say, I'm also not impressed with some of my friends and feeling kind of hurt. I emailed my 3 good friends yesterday with my news of suckiness and only 1 of them emailed back. I understand we're all busy, but this is kind of important. I'm feeling kind of shitty about this. Oh well, I'll just quietly brood until I blow up at somebody. And yes, I'm well aware that my friends may read this.